Neurotic Behavior Coming to a Writer Near You

So, writer friends, I am back in the query saddle.

That sentence deserves to stand alone, doesn't it? Do you hear the dramatic music playing in the background? Like the Inception music. Deep and dangerous, and you just know something scary is going to happen.

I've sent out six queries in the last four days. I already got one rejection (gotta love those supersonic ones). At first when I send them, I feel this excited little ball of hope rise up inside me. What if this is the one? What if an agent writes me back and says, "I really like this. Send me more!"

I know it will happen one day. And I also know it's unreasonable to really want this first book to get published (I've written a lot of others, but this is the first finished one). But come on, let's get real. Of course I want to get an agent for this first book, and of course I want it to be published! I'm willing for that not to happen, but I'd really love it if it did.

So of course the crazy is settling into my brain. The waiting. The heart-lurching that occurs every time I see I have a new email. The dreams. Yep, even in my sleep I'm dreaming about agents. I dreamed one agent said he liked my book, and he said it was because my main gift was my "colorful" writing. In the dream this made total sense to me, but when I woke up, I was like "huh?" What the frig does that mean? It sounds the same as when someone says something is "interesting".

The whole thing's a total thrill ride. So if I seem weirder than usual, you'll know why! How about you? Whatcha up to? Anybody on the query roller coaster with me?